Low self-esteem comes down to and back to and up and around to fear of being gassed , tortured, starved or shot.

My issue was not my self-esteem being bad. Or at least that's not how it started. It was society that didn't believe me, believe in me, or trust me. I wasn't born hating myself or scorning or belittling or mistrusting or not trusting myself. I never even really bought into the idea that I was inferior or immoral... I was just angry at others for thinking I was... and they of course then said I was projecting my feelings about myself onto others saying others were thinking that crap about me when they weren't. These people who said this did not know the things people directly said about me and meant. They assumed it was all in my head or that I was making it up, but that no, I COULDN'T have actually experienced it... that I'm too much of a spoiled brat to possibly have experienced anything other than sunshine and rainbows. That the problem is me.

It's their own (very temporary) privilege that is making and letting them make assumptions like this.

I was also very scared of people thinking and spreading negativity about me. Not because I was a dumb little girl who wanted to be popular and loved by everyone. I did go through that phase, but that wasn't even half of the reason I was scared of people spreading negativity. The reason I was scared of that was because I was scared that if the negative rumors about me got to a large enough number of the wrong people who had too much power, then it could ruin my life.

It wasn't always that I didn't know my own worth. When I truly didn't know my own worth-- and that was often too, because of societal attitudes and prejudices that everyone is pretty much aware of from age two just from looking around and experiencing their immediate vicinity-- then that WAS even worse. But even when I did know it, who wants to live and die lonely and alone, being the only person they know who knows their worth? Who doesn't think they're incapable, unloving, or both?

If you have family and friends and value them, then you need to stop telling me I shouldn't need any.

And if you see yourself as a "valuable member of society," then you need to stop telling me to be scared of being rounded up and sent off to be gassed one day for being "useless to society." Because the likes of YOU-- your attitude, rather-- is perpetuating that danger to us that's actually dangerous to everyone including you!

Those not seen as lovable get used instead, but not really. Those not seen as usable get loved but not really.

If nobody thinks you are lovable or even useable, you become the first (or the next) to go.

When one underestimates anyone's need for, qualification for benefiting from, deservingness of, and desire for being humanized-- having their sentience acknowledged-- then one is underestimating that in an infinite sense.