The only way anyone ... And I do mean anyone and everyone other than Teddy... has ever tried to appeal to me emotionally when I'm in a negative state is through shame and guilt trips. (Otherwise they just try to appeal to me intellectually.)
Never positive emotions like "I know you love so and so very much and you might not want to say that... You know that will hurt them just like this hurt you... Because you can relate... You experienced such and such just like they do." instead they insist on name calling, accusations, kicking me whule I'm already down in the name of "using tough love to boot me to my feet," other types of belittling, telling me they expected better of me, telling me some bad thing will befall ME if this or unless that (assuming I'm a primitive who doesn't care about or want anyone other than myself).
And yes, I will go there.. It's sad. Just because I'm complaining here about my own life doesnt mean I have no right to be sad about this and to say that the reason why I'm sad about it is because it is actually sad.
Maybe they do this because they think I'm heartless and have no real emotional standards other than an ego. And that hurts so damn much.
They have read me so dead wrong, and gotten me down as so much the opposite of my actual values, that I want to throw up.
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